June 28, 2007

• The Secret Garden Musical

  The Lord gives, and He takes away. Praise be to God.

  He gave me the chance to be in this incredible musical, The Secret Garden. Last night was our first night off book for non-musical dialogue. I have my part memorised now- I sang the music off book, I spoke the lines off book. All that remained was to get my written lines as an understudy down. I’ve invested every night of every day of every week for weeks now with few exceptions, and all day Saturdays as well as Sunday evenings. It was work, but it was wonderful work that really was paying off. I was blessed with ‘the best seat in the house’ to watch this beautiful musical over, and over, and over again as it evolved into something beautiful.

  And the Lord took it away, today. I don’t like it. The way it happened is, at this point, the second most painful way I can imagine it possibly having to happen. It hurts, it hurts a lot- it was not a testament to my work ethic, or to my talent in any way… and that’s why it hurts. I don’t like it, I don’t want it, oh how I wish I could stay and perform this musical like I’ve worked so hard to do.

  But this is how it is, and the Lord has taken it away. So even in my pain, even in this incredible hurt where I feel deeply humiliated and rejected, I say: praise to God. Just as I wrote to be put on my actor bio in the program: “All credit for my accomplishments both on and off-stage go to Jesus Christ.”

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